After applying to 10+ places, I finally have two or three job interviews! I don't like being financially dependent on my parent. It's about time I start learning how hard it is to make money.

Also, I didn't do so well on my ecology midterm, and it's my fault for underestimating the test. I should've studied a little bit everyday and not cram the last minute. I really want to stop making the same mistakes. I can't go back to my old habits, and I must raise my GPA. I need pretty much all B+s or better for the next three years if I even want a shot at applying for graduate school.

Sophomore year, please be good to me. I'm volunteering in the hospital, doing research, and having a part-time job. This year, I hope I will kill all my bad habits, and I won't make any of the same academic mistakes like ever. Baby steps are the first step to making progress.

I don't want to complain to my best friend and boyfriend about bad grades anymore. If I want to be smart, I have to study a little bit everyday and not fall asleep in class. If I want to be skinny, I have to eat healthy and make an attempt to run even if it's just fifteen minutes. If I want to be better-looking, I have to stop dressing like a slob and wake up an extra ten minutes.

If I want to be the person I want to be, I have to change. Throughout my life, I've always had security, and I really cannot take that for granted.

I can't keep having these epiphanies every three months and have sudden bursts of change. I shouldn't be moving backwards at all.